idk what to do besides give up and hopefully die soon. i will never be a female, my bones are so fucked i cant even pretend to be female. ugh idk i just rot all day waiting to die a man i just want to be happy for once and its never going to happen

  • neverpassoidOP
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    9 days ago

    an obtainable goal for me is living as a hon and being seen as a freak a vast majority of society, looking in the mirror and seeing a delusional man that tells others to call you something he is not. there is no happy ending the only realistic solution is suicide when i cant handle manmoding anymore

    • Lengthofdry1943
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      9 days ago

      I can’t either. It’s why I’m saving up for ffs and vaginoplasty rn. Literally went tax exempt to get the starting funds together, and I’m trying to get a job with really good health insurance (interviewing today). What you say I believe is more a step, because you can’t see yourself outside the ceiling you arbitrarily assume under your own current circumstances and logic. But I understand why you do it, and I can’t say I don’t fall into thinking like that, especially having no one in my life I expect to understand living as a trans person. Like I said, taking meaningful steps towards a goal, and not expecting perfection.

      • neverpassoidOP
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        9 days ago

        everything is just so hard, ill think about what goal i can work towards ig. thanks, hope you have a good interview and everything

        • Lengthofdry1943
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          9 days ago

          Definitely. It is hard. But you already have more strength than most dealing with your present pressures. Thank u for your support, I believe in you!