I can’t either. It’s why I’m saving up for ffs and vaginoplasty rn. Literally went tax exempt to get the starting funds together, and I’m trying to get a job with really good health insurance (interviewing today). What you say I believe is more a step, because you can’t see yourself outside the ceiling you arbitrarily assume under your own current circumstances and logic. But I understand why you do it, and I can’t say I don’t fall into thinking like that, especially having no one in my life I expect to understand living as a trans person. Like I said, taking meaningful steps towards a goal, and not expecting perfection.