I felt that something was off from last thursday on, communication got even worse and wrote it because of that and yeah. 5 minutes after waking up i lost my most important relationship, the one i trusted the most to be honest to me and ngl the one i thought would survive everyone else. I still have my sister but this took away like most of my safety in life and most of my reasons to go on. I can’t do anything to myself because it would think it’s at fault. Now i think i should call in sick and just lay in bed or something. Normaly it would clear my head, but can’t go work like that

    • FuxmoderOP
      2·
      12 days ago

      I don‘t know if you should be, i am an awful human sometimes, it feels like i deserve it

      • DysphoriaGirl
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        12 days ago

        Look, I’ve lost a dear friend over being a bad person too… but in the end you need to forgive yourself if you’ve made a mistake and also realize that you can’t and shouldn’t shoulder everything because nothing is ever just the fault of one person. Life is too complicated for that… try to give yourself some grace… you deserve somebody feeling sorry for you… everybody deserves empathy

        • FuxmoderOP
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          11 days ago

          I don‘t know why exactly it happened, didn’t get told it until now

          Just constantly seeing what we had, how we talked, how we were good for each other and idk, suddenly not and ahhhh

          I only got told it‘s over, i am not good fir it, and we will talk at another point

          The silence kills me