I felt that something was off from last thursday on, communication got even worse and wrote it because of that and yeah. 5 minutes after waking up i lost my most important relationship, the one i trusted the most to be honest to me and ngl the one i thought would survive everyone else. I still have my sister but this took away like most of my safety in life and most of my reasons to go on. I can’t do anything to myself because it would think it’s at fault. Now i think i should call in sick and just lay in bed or something. Normaly it would clear my head, but can’t go work like that