How the hell am I supposed to stop thinking about being a tranny for one fucking second I even have been listening to the transvestic youtube videos from people like Lily Alexander and books from others while exercising. I just want my mind to stop thinking about this for a second. I can’t cope out and think the thoughts will go away once I start estrogen because I’m sure I will only think about it more. I’m going to get to start stressing about people figuring it out, whether or not my changes are happening, whether or not I will pass with a growing body of visual evidence, whether or not I will fuck things up based upon how much I’m fucking eating so I can eventually stop being an obese moid.
14 days until I either fuck up my entire life or do the best thing I have ever done by injecting exogenous hormones! Time to go for another 90 minute or so elliptical session going for 11.5 miles today!
I’m glad you’re being active!
I have to stop eating so much I need to lose this fucking weight. Right now it’s going to take another 14 months to get to a decent weight and not considering that the loss is going to slow down as I get lighter.
Didn’t see anything about misery. I couldn’t have known when I posted this I just typed it up and sent it after getting back home.
Feel like an idiot for posting this but still couldn’t have known not the right time to have done it.
