this flash of envy every time i see a woman

wanting breasts is so disgustingly fetishistic why why why

i cant have children! im barren! why does it feel like my body is half missing? there is no reason to want breasts or hips or any of it, theres no purpose to this envy but petty narcissism! im not a real trans woman, i didnt “know” that im a woman im just chasing it out of this weird vanity , its compeltely irrational so why cant i let it go??

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      its not dysphoria though, its just jealousy for an experience i cant possibly understand. im not co sidering any of the reality of being a woman just shallow physical aesthetic

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        you’re not considering it how? because you’re not imagining yourself directly suffering in a woman’s shoes? I mean like yeah that’s how physical dysphoria works.

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            but i cant have children. and therefore there is no functional need for me to have breasts beyond my own fetish for it

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              dysphoria is your bodies confusion about lacking its functional needs. it is still going to want them regardless because that’s what it knows it should have.

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                ok but this isnt dysphoria tho its me being a narcissist who wants to appropriate the experience of cis and trans women for my own satisfaction even though im not one:(

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                  7 days ago

                  > dysphoria by definition.

                  >“well, actually I just want the satisfaction of appropriating an experience of suffering and systemic oppression because… because I just do okay! I’m a narcissist!”

                  end the larps.

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    realize you cant ever have it and find a hobby. i only cry sometimes!