Why did this happen? Can the universe explain to me, why am I feeling this way? Why did I not feel this way so strongly before? Why didn’t I realize earlier? I’m 18. I femboycoped at 16. Why is the world so cruel. Suicide is not an option because I’ll only pass the suffering to others. Even if I die, others still suffer in this world, therefore I do. My view on consciousness is that it does not matter whether I am experiencing it or someone else is, we are a part of the same universe, ego is just an illusion. All pain is my pain, all happiness is my happiness.
Yeah I’m getting on DIY no matter what, no matter the consequences, no matter if I’m faketrans. I simply mentally cannot stand further damage. No Helll nah I can’t imagine myself looking like my father, I’d rope on the spot.