I’m genuinely losing my mind. I looked in the mirror just now and I really am 100% male. I stg most of you would rope if you had my face. Its bad. Really really bad. I don’t know what to do. I want to go back to repressing. At least then I wouldn’t have any emotions at all. All it takes is one look in the mirror and my entire day is ruined. All the energy is sapped out of me. I don’t think this whole transitioning thing is going to work.

  • pleasantaftertastes
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    8 days ago

    it’s still worth trying, even if it takes quite a long time. I’m with you, and I wish you the best.

      • its_ogreOP
        2·
        8 days ago

        My face is so bad I don’t think just hrt alone is going to make me look even remotely feminine. It all just feels utterly hopeless. I don’t know what to do with myself in this in-between period

        • pleasantaftertastes
          2·
          8 days ago

          it does, honestly. We can thank the endocrine system for that. I don’t really know what to do with myself either. Just stick around and try to be happy and get things set up in the meantime and take whatever joy you can find.

          • its_ogreOP
            2·
            8 days ago

            Ok, I’ll try my best. I kinda promised myself if I didn’t look like a woman by 30 I would rope but now I’m scared I wont even make that cutoff :(

            I think what I’ll try to do now is just become absorbed in my interests and try to forget my appearance as much as possible. Anyways thanks for replying I always appreciate it 🫂