The river of time flows in only one direction, swim with the current or you will flit away your future.
It’s not like you could stop agonizing, lol. I don’t have any future anyway.
never thought of it that way
Yeah well everything is pointless so I’ll do what I want
You don’t do what you want though, you want to be confident in your life and succeed in transition,
Is that what you’re doing?
Or are you letting the rest of the pointless world frighten you into dooming all day instead?
I’ve tried being confident, didn’t work. Because there’s nothing for me to have confidence in.
Better off having my expectations in hell so I’m at least surprised if anything does ever happen instead of having them where I’d just be disappointed.
The outcome is the same regardless.
Can you give me some examples of when you tried?
Failure does suck, and sometimes it takes a long time to get back on horse after it’s thrown you off, and that’s okay, but you must get back on the horse eventually, surrender is the only thing you cannot do as a human, it’s hardwired into it DNA.
Failure is a completely normal part of the path to success, and continuing o fight for your happiness is in and of itself, something you can hold your head high and be confident about- I know it sounds cheesy, but a lot of life is about perspective and the narrative we build of our lives.
Uhhhhh, literally like since realising I was trans until like a year into hrt when I realised nothing I would do fix my body? So like 5 years ish? How I would forever be undesirable not only because I am a tranny but also because I’ve been incapable of socialising my whole life? Among other things. Even with academics, the single thing I was meant to be good at, I’m getting worse and worse at despite all my efforts.
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