For the context my father raped me and my mom knew something is off, but she always found reasons to stay w him like “I just didn’t want u to grow up without a father”, we all know it’s bs, he called her a bitch, tried to threaten me etc. she just to incompetent to live on her own

My father is probably a psychopath who just wants everything to stay the same, so every time he misbehaves I start to push the narrative that he is bad and shit, one time I fought him off w a pepper spray and shit. Fuck them, one raped me another one neglected me, and I was an unwanted child too, a “happy accident” as they say

Now basically I’m a neet and they won’t touch me because it’s better for everyone that way. I don’t do shit for them and milk them for money and housing for what they done to me, while I spend time to on hrt and healing myself in general.

Over the years I sorta fought them off and slowly conditioned them to this point, when I was small I couldn’t say a word in response, now I’m not that easy to manipulate and abuse. And tbh I hope I’ll find a way to make their lives into hell

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      8 days ago

      not really , they’re terrible people, but its probably not healthy for to be fueled by hate for other reasons

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      8 days ago

      More bitter than cruel. It’s not like they don’t deserve it.

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        8 days ago

        Idk act of slowly over the years conditioning my parents into not touching me and shit… Ig that’s just survival more than cruel idk

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          8 days ago

          I mean, is it not normal not wanting to be touched by your rapist and his enabler? Why do they want to touch you in the first place?

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            8 days ago

            I meant like… Not disturbing me or something, sorry my English is bad