It’s so fucking annoying but I can’t help it. I still can’t understand how I didn’t question anything until 20. I still cant understand how I was porn addicted and basically didn’t have bottom dysphoria until questioning. Every time someone posts some bs about faketrans this faketrans that I start spiraling and the doubting starts all over again. The new legendary cope that I discovered because of Will Powers is that since I don’t have hypospadias I’m faketrans LIKE DO U HEAR HOW STUPID THIS IS ALL IS.

Everything points to faketrans rogd yet I have no intention of getting off estradiol and have experienced no reverse dysphoria.

I mean it’s just so retarded. What man would give himself gyno and be happy with it? What man would willingly give himself ED and low libido??

I think the source of the problem is that I still haven’t truly accepted that I’m a tranny. I just can’t believe it it’s all so surreal.

I’m sorry if these posts are really annoying and dumb I’ll stop posting if I’m just being annoying :(

  • its_ogreOP
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    9 days ago

    I don’t think there are any good answers, I’m sorry. It just sucks… I definitely get the feeling of being “broken”

    Just please know that you have worth. You are worth more than your ability to reproduce (or lack thereof :/ ) I just hope one day you can find someone that values you for you

    also I feel guilty I’m pretty sure I made you spiral, sorry about that 🫂

    • DysphoriaGirl
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      9 days ago

      I’m okay, don’t worry. It just sucks. You’re right about that. I just think that I somehow have to hold on a little longer until this somehow works out and hopefully I dont have to wait months. The only real benefit I could see in all of this is preparation time… like somehow doing certain things before starting HRT. But then again I would have to actively do that instead of just sitting around which is difficult if I’m depressed haha