I can feel it. Racing thoughts. Irritability. Lowered inhibitions around suicidality. Others noticing me not acting like myself and expressing concern. Got like 3 hours of sleep last night and just kinda rolled around. Insight into my condition already waxing and waning. Songs stuck in my head play thru my ears like I have headphones on. I should be sleeping but forcing my eyes closed when the last thing I want to do is rest feels like torture. Maybe I should be temp-banned before I embarrass myself. Idk. I’ve been religiously taking my meds. Why must this happen now. Praying that it’s brief. Praying that it’s like a week. Idk I’ll just lie around. I must sleep while I still have enough sense to force myself. I must. Love y’all
it’s okay you will get through this. try to distract yourself if you can. do you need someone to talk to right now?
Goodd idea tbh friend in other timezone has been notified. Probs waiting on her to wake up in like another hour but she gets if I’m still awake she’ll be good help we go way back
that is good, it’s good to reach out. i hope talking to her helps