I think I have it. I didn’t question at all that I was trans until just before hitting 21 (im def the most faketrans here). Only then did my dysphoria get really bad, and I immediately got on hormones. Before then, I only had a few subconscious troon thoughts from some early age to 20. And yeahhhhh you can say I was just dissociating or whatever but I don’t really relate a lot to the way other ppl here describe dissociation. I genuinely think I just got dysphoria from being in trans spaces