i cant make friends there is no one who really cares if i live or die really i think that a good amount of people would be happy if i died im not even sure what im doing wrong
I’ve always found success making friends and being well liked by just being nice and agreeable and smiling a lot, the stuff everyone recommends you be. At the end of the day, its hardly even worth it with most people and I can’t even recommend because it just ends up being so hollow. I’ve been genuinely popular in social groups before, many a time in fact, but I’d always just gravitate back to hanging out with my sister or cousin or insert other non-sneedy online trans friends because its just impossible to form bonds on a truly deeper level with people when we don’t understand each other’s full experience. Idk it’s probably soulhon of me not to be able to relate on such a deep level with cis women, but it is what it is and cis men are ten times more impossible.
yeah im good at doing the smiling and small talk i just cant make like actual friends like i get closer to someone and my real personality comes out and i push them away
any ideas what aspects of the real you pushes them away?
i just get really erratic like its hard to explain kinda
like one time my friend cancelled plans and that made me spiral and i tried to kms and people dont like when you do that lol
Yah I’m really sorry, my sister is sorta similar. Sounds like fear of abandonment/rejection which is challenging to deal with.
yeah they say i have bpd
Really sorry if so, BPD is so painful
looking in to this
