i cant make friends there is no one who really cares if i live or die really i think that a good amount of people would be happy if i died im not even sure what im doing wrong

  • sophiaOP
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    16 days ago

    yeah im good at doing the smiling and small talk i just cant make like actual friends like i get closer to someone and my real personality comes out and i push them away

      • sophiaOP
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        16 days ago

        i just get really erratic like its hard to explain kinda

        • sophiaOP
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          16 days ago

          like one time my friend cancelled plans and that made me spiral and i tried to kms and people dont like when you do that lol

          • CutePlushies
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            16 days ago

            Yah I’m really sorry, my sister is sorta similar. Sounds like fear of abandonment/rejection which is challenging to deal with.

                • sophiaOP
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                  16 days ago

                  i dont really psychiatrists just want to say you have something i was bipolar for a while now im bpd its all made up