like im referring to deeply rooted internalized racism
tw:racist asf upbringing and internal thoughts
the type where ur father would tell u how “born lazy” and good for nothing black ppl are ever since u could walk, where everyone, including teachers, at ur christian (ultraracist) private school would ostracize u for the fact that ur the only african kid there, where u feel shameful spark of happiness from having fairer skin and whiter features than the rest of ur family, the type where uve done actual skin bleaching, etc
ive tried wokehacking myself into being happy abt it but doesnt work and mask never sticks
I’m really terrible with race issues and experienced nothing similar but I’m really sorry you went through that and I hope you find a way to separate from it eventually somehow, childhood can easily instill fucked up ideas and racism does seem one of the worst and most effective ways to do it
To be clear I’m only inexperienced because the first thing you’d ask a non-white person that’s here is “why the fuck did you end up here of all places”, not because I’m in a white suburb or something. Actually ig it is a white suburb but the suburb just sucks so much ass noone normal would come to it, hm…
im not sure what ur trying to say in the latter half but if ur just asking why i use 4chan spaces its bc ive been fairly desensitized to derogatory slur usage so idgaf to seeing the n word used, it just feels like stating a fact of my existence but in a less socially acceptable way ig
like im referring to deeply rooted internalized racism
tw:racist asf upbringing and internal thoughts
the type where ur father would tell u how “born lazy” and good for nothing black ppl are ever since u could walk, where everyone, including teachers, at ur christian (ultraracist) private school would ostracize u for the fact that ur the only african kid there, where u feel shameful spark of happiness from having fairer skin and whiter features than the rest of ur family, the type where uve done actual skin bleaching, etc
ive tried wokehacking myself into being happy abt it but doesnt work and mask never sticks
I’m really terrible with race issues and experienced nothing similar but I’m really sorry you went through that and I hope you find a way to separate from it eventually somehow, childhood can easily instill fucked up ideas and racism does seem one of the worst and most effective ways to do it
To be clear I’m only inexperienced because the first thing you’d ask a non-white person that’s here is “why the fuck did you end up here of all places”, not because I’m in a white suburb or something. Actually ig it is a white suburb but the suburb just sucks so much ass noone normal would come to it, hm…
im not sure what ur trying to say in the latter half but if ur just asking why i use 4chan spaces its bc ive been fairly desensitized to derogatory slur usage so idgaf to seeing the n word used, it just feels like stating a fact of my existence but in a less socially acceptable way ig
sorry sometimes i just write things
No “here” meant my country, sorry yeah no reading it again jesus christ i wrote nonsense again…
my mother moved to cali for uni from abroad, met my dad, had me in this stupid fucking country