If I’m not going to pass then I will try to surgerymaxx or kms but i know repping will also kill me so j decided to actually try being who I want to be. I have never seen a faketrans person who wants to kill themselves because they aren’t a woman so I just stopped worrying about it. I plan to make this a routine and try to live my life knowing that at least slightly I’m going to get better.
What if I’m just bpd suicide larping? That way I can be suicidal about it and still faketrans anyway. So yeah… checkmate. Also surgeries at least to me feel more illegitimate and unnatural than HRT which is why I hope HRT alone will help me pass. Idk… I am retarded. Also faketrans?
That’s a really complicated way of explaining something that can be caused by way simpler thing wich is just being trans. I also tried thinking things like this but it was too complex for me to actually believe it. Surgeries are kind of illegitimate but I’m planning to look like a woman and not being the most natural person ever since testosterone poisoning is enough of a disadvantage. I know it’s hard but accepting what you have and working with it is genuinely the only thing you can do
If I’m not going to pass then I will try to surgerymaxx or kms but i know repping will also kill me so j decided to actually try being who I want to be. I have never seen a faketrans person who wants to kill themselves because they aren’t a woman so I just stopped worrying about it. I plan to make this a routine and try to live my life knowing that at least slightly I’m going to get better.
What if I’m just bpd suicide larping? That way I can be suicidal about it and still faketrans anyway. So yeah… checkmate. Also surgeries at least to me feel more illegitimate and unnatural than HRT which is why I hope HRT alone will help me pass. Idk… I am retarded. Also faketrans?
That’s a really complicated way of explaining something that can be caused by way simpler thing wich is just being trans. I also tried thinking things like this but it was too complex for me to actually believe it. Surgeries are kind of illegitimate but I’m planning to look like a woman and not being the most natural person ever since testosterone poisoning is enough of a disadvantage. I know it’s hard but accepting what you have and working with it is genuinely the only thing you can do
My mind doesn’t care and loves to try to kill me so it will use whatever pseudo-science and explanation will work to pathologize myself.
Homosexuality --> Father Attachment Failure, Mirroring Failure, Narcissism, Meta-Attraction…
Trans Thoughts --> Autogynephilia, Autosexual Developmental Fixation, Autosexual Narcissim…
Queerness --> Lifestyle Choice, Secular Hedonism, Life > Death, Godless, Evolutionary Defect, Social Contagion, Mental Ilnesss…
Reperative Therapy --> Feeling is okay, Behavior is not, no need to change orientation, sublimate…
Yeah… and it makes me want to kill myself.