Had to flee from them for being bisexual. Now I am at a queer shelter, can stay here for some undefined length of time. Got my “own” place but family essentially emotionally forces me to always spend time with them and I oblige because I also love them and need them but it also can be extremely mentally exhausting and also there is the constant fear that they might hurt me or lock me up again if I start being more visibly queer, have a boyfriend, wear alt or fem stuff and especially if there are physical changes from transition. Like they freak out at me wearing bracelets and refusing to cut my hair.
What am I supposed to do. And my mom keeps talking about God, who I do believe in, but it makes me feel so guilty and just throws me back into the mindset I was in during reperative therapy 2 and 1/2 years ago and makes me so suicidal…
Had to flee from them for being bisexual. Now I am at a queer shelter, can stay here for some undefined length of time. Got my “own” place but family essentially emotionally forces me to always spend time with them and I oblige because I also love them and need them but it also can be extremely mentally exhausting and also there is the constant fear that they might hurt me or lock me up again if I start being more visibly queer, have a boyfriend, wear alt or fem stuff and especially if there are physical changes from transition. Like they freak out at me wearing bracelets and refusing to cut my hair.
What am I supposed to do. And my mom keeps talking about God, who I do believe in, but it makes me feel so guilty and just throws me back into the mindset I was in during reperative therapy 2 and 1/2 years ago and makes me so suicidal…
Idk… thank you for your kind words.