I love my mum but I am genuinely so scared of her I think shes a big reason why im such a mess today , she is a genuine nightmare when shes angry and when I talk about it with social workers they tell me I just have to accept it and that its my fault also because my stupid autism brain makes me go nonverbal when shes angry bc of how scared I am of her. I used to lash out at her when I was like 10 but now I just freeze up and cry, even when im crying my eyes out she doesnt care she still berates me. She often violently grabs me and when its really bad she drags me across the floor. She still confiscates my stuff like im 5, she definitely views me as a baby because of my autism. Im glad she doesnt spank me anymore bc she used to when I was very little and whenever I mention it to her she tells me she didnt or that it wasnt painful. She acts like im a big threat to her and that im scary bc im male (shes acted this way ever since i was lile 14), when Im a 5ft 3 weakling whilst shes fat and easily overpowers me I often have to get her to open things bc im too weak too. I am just so tired :( sorry for the long rant I just dont have anyone to tell this too
Disorders are not excuse, she sound like a bad person. I’m really sorry and I hope that you get away soon.
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why are you blaming the disorders instead of her?
I blame both, I think shed be alot sweeter if she didnt have the disorder. Mental disorders are mental for a reason, they affect the way people think and behave. not saying shed be perfect, just feel like shed be a bit less cruel to me
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well that’s fucking rude, I know you’re in pain and suffer but that’s no reason to insult others
If you can’t therapy this shit out of yourself, then don’t have kids, it’s simple - be considerate human being. Is it too much to ask for? We don’t need more traumatised children in this world.
I didnt insult anyone, just sayinf you probably shouldnt have kids if ur mental illness makes it impossible/hard to act rationally
should i also not date or have friends? Am i a detriment to society because I am not well? Should I just kill myself to improve everyone’s life?
No, just don’t have kids. Untreated bpd makes you completely incapable of being good parent, I’m sorry it’s harsh, but this is true, I know it from my experience. Spend years in therapy first if you want to lead little human being who will utterly trust you through this life. Children are not there for your fulfillment.
what if you are treated? OP saying nothing about treatment. Not like my mentally well parents performed well at all
If someone was treated and had successful therapy and learned emotion management and rational thinking then you wouldn’t know, right?
Do you think these are curable? There will always be a chance of relapse
Of course I don’t think these are curable, but take huge effort to live with them and control them, and self-awareness to seek help during relapse. Consider what’s best for the kids waiting for adoption. Being raised by someone with mental disorders is traumatic. I don’t mean it as an attack on you or anyone.
you know “mentally healthy” parents abuse and rape their children all the time right?
Children are not there for your fulfillment.
HAHAHAHA why do you think most people have kids?
Why do you think most kids are traumatised in some way? Majority of people shouldn’t be parents in my opinion, but let’s not delve into that.
Because most people I know were abused in one form or another by their parents?
