Disclaimer: I’m gonna give myself the privilege to slowly get off of here by allowing myself to post here once in a while. I’m not here to claim anything about me being faketrans though I just want to talk about my OCD thoughts related to all of this and how I feel.

But yeah, I saw a post on r/honesttransgender about how back then transsexuals just knew that they were the other sex and that “questioning” wasn’t really a thing in the past. It makes me think this whole thing is just a social contagion and that I will regret my decision one day because I didn’t know at an early age.

I also feel that if I regret it I would lose everything for nothing because of my unaccepting family and unfulfilling family obligations of having kids. I think if I had a way of having bio kids without using my sperm I would 100% do that instead but I didn’t preserve anything because I feared in the future my bottom dysphoria would get worse which it did.

The thought of me doing all of this because of other issues and me maladaptive coping is another worm of mine.

Idk just hearing detransition stories and of how real true transsexuals feel spike my OCD because it makes me think I would become a detransitioner in the future and regret everything I did and lose everything for nothing or worse.

Anyways, those are my main thoughts for the past week. See y’all in 10 days when I allow myself to post here again.

  • RabbitHoleGirly
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    10 days ago

    I don’t think anyone who says “questioning” wasn’t a thing back then is using rose tinted glasses

    like it’s just that you stop remembering your youth, and it starts to feel like no time at all

    I’ve been wanting to transition for like 10 years now, and now don’t remember what the first 2 years of that are like anymore

    They were honestly likely a lot of coping questioning, I mean heck I thought I was Genderfluid, until I was like… “Ok when I’m dysphoric I want to be a girl… but when I’m not… I’d still prefer to be a girl”

    So yeah, like my first 2-3 years of wanting to transition were definitely exploratory, until I came out and got beaten up by my dad for being a tranny, so I had to wait 4 more years…