i probably hurt countless people and it was all just because i hated myself. i wanted other people to hurt too. it was disgusting. i hope ive atleast made up for it a little bit. i’ll only exist in the past tense soon. i hope god can forgive me. i have sinned so much in this life but he is all forgiving. i’m not trans like you are, it’s not sinful to actually be trans but when you aren’t, it rots your soul to be on the opposite sexes hormone. my soul is possibly irredeemable. i’m not sure right now.
i’m relatively sure i’m only “trans” due to early confusion of gender, being envious of my sisters, freudian mother, and rape at the hands of someone i trusted which gave me discomfort with my penis. i don’t think i have dysphoria just confusion.
I guess i cant be the true judge of that but i disagree , some of your points could easily be due to gender dysphoria. And Im so sorry that you went through that horrible thing. Please never be an past tense