Ok so lets talk a bit on this…

Because I feel like some of y’all give the me the impression that I’m not welcome in trans spaces again

And I get that

That’s fine

Maybe I’m a bit too passing for this type of space

But do y’all really want me to stop posting

Because I’ve been enjoying posting here

I’ve enjoyed posting about my life

I like interacting with y’all

Talking to y’all

Seeing what y’all’s experiences in life are

I don’t mean to judge or think poorly

And I generally don’t

I think all people are beautiful

And it’s saddening to see this forum in a constant state of crisis as you’re pretty minds and souls are being tortured by the hellscape we call life

I’m suffering on some days

I’m having the time of my life on others

And I like blogging that, it makes me feel human

It also is my hope that some of y’all might have similar experience

I imagine a some of you don’t, but there’s surely at least one of you on most posts that feels like someone else has a similar experience

Idk, I just like y’all and I think my life is cool and hopefully worth sharing

If you’re wishing to not see me

You can block me I suppose

It’s make me feel unwanted

But what of it

I’m just one human

Honestly my experience here reenforced my guilt of feeling happy

I’m sorry I feel happy while y’all don’t

It’s truly and injustice, that u can’t exactly correct

Or I can’t do so in a utilitarian way

Because the amount of happiness is lose would be infinite, but the happiness gained would be finite

Point is… sorry y’all…

Stay cool!!!

  • sophia
    3·
    3 days ago

    “maybe im a bit too passing for this space” this is why its not that you pass its that you dont shut up about it😭

    • RabbitHoleGirlyOP
      11·
      3 days ago

      Nah I get it

      Honestly I have 3 responses and rationals for how I think about it but

      Like 1: I was insecure about my passing, so initially I started by becoming a Honlarper because that’s how y’all and BDD made me feel (and yeah I really do have unstable body image, literal mirror distortions

      2 I think these places have a conflation of stealth and passing, I went stealth before I went passing, and for me stealth is kinda just meaning that I will not say that I’m trans or a man to anyone… if they clock me so be it… I’ll deny deny deny, I mog cishons, they can fight me

      3 I feel like it makes my opinion more easily disregardable, I don’t think people should take my advise as gospel, I do literally suffer less transphobia than some of y’all, and am just lucky, so there’s no grand enlightenment I unlocked to transcend the fact that I am fortunate and privileged