She’d have rather tried to detroon to cheat on me with a straight woman on the other side of the planet than love me, someone who actually loved her, and I’m literally the state next door to her.

I dropped $2 grand ($1500 USD) on flights and a bougie king size hotel room in the center of the city CBD and bought almost every meal she fucking ate for her, I shouldered all her troubles and woes and put myself second for almost 2 fucking months, when I tried to talk to her about what was troubling me she scolded me for risking “setting her off” or completely changed the subject back to herself almost immediately.

I called the fucking ambulance to her house at 4 in the fucking morning when she posted the suicide note, I was doing everything I could to get a contract and transfer to her city with my current job.

And in return she tries to cheat on me with a straight woman on the other side of the globe, genuinely what the fuck.