if i had just never gotten fat my body would be okay. itd be good even considering when i started and how tall i am. id have a real visible whr. i could at least be a cute skinny twink. and i know this is true because i can literally see it. if i grab the looseness and pull it back and taut literally everything about my silhouette fixes itself. the bones underneath the scars of my obesity are fine. not perfect, but good enough for me.

but i cant have that shape because my body is permanently deflated and ugly because i let myself get fat instead of starving when i was repping. it hurts so much to be able to literally see what my body should look like but cant. i wasnt even obese for long. but it doesnt matter cause now im stuck like this without surgery i cant afford. and unlike my face, i know that if i had just done things differently, i wouldnt have to suffer like this