i was keeping everything there bc i was hoping my health will improve but it hasn’t and i still have no clue what’s causing my mystery illness

the apartment and health insurance costs quite a bit that’s why they want to stop those bc im not there, i can technically still return there once my health gets better but i feel like if i do give up on everything there, i wont go back, i don’t have in me anymore, ill genuine need to hypomanic to get back, im so tired, everything is exhausting and idk what’s wrong with me

i also can’t get vyvanse in mauritius so that sucks, my problem might be my weight but weight loss is taking forever, it’ll prob take me a year to get to 90kg(im 120rn, my end goal is prob 60-70kg)

i am so tired, i have no willpower, i can barely think, and everything annoys me bc im not on vyvanse

i dont know what to do, part of me also wants to move back mauritius bc im just so tired of everything