like, there are somehow people who never tried to kill themselves, never seriously considered going through an attempt or even so much as had passive suicidal ideation once in their lives
some of them never even had mild depression
literally how are some people just born happy??? it just doesn’t make sense
like i “attempted” multiple times as a kid and i have always had the thought but i also have always known i am way too scared to actually do it, also the extent of my self harm is like slapping myself and pulling my hair which just feels more like autism to me