Idk if it’s biochemical or maybe I’m just worried subconsciously, but ever since starting hrt (18 days) I’ve became more anxious consistently. When I’m non dysphoric I just feel like maybe I should stop. But then dysphoria hits and I’m glad to be on hrt and everything. Why is my mind so cruel? Can it just decide on what the hell it wants? I’m so scared of change, yet if I don’t, I know that I’ll suffer and regret. Could this be pseudodysphoria ocd or something?
at 18 days your body is still shifting and adjusting to it, your levels are probably a bit wonky and will even out eventually, if not get it tested and checked.
I have to test it when my levels are going to be 100% stable since that’d make a big hole in my budget
Typically from what I hear 3 months should be a solid time to check from after you start, not that it’ll take that long, just to be sure
ultimately though i am far from the most knowledgeable on this matter.
Yeah I’ll do it somewhere like that