especially after transistion/during transistion or when you can afford to do more stuff. i dont know why we as human beings lose our minds in our twenties its like a second puberty, and then its worse for us on top of going through a second tranny puberty. hormones going mental
i catch myself lamenting my teenagerhood sometimes like what the fuck am i TALKING about im almost thirty who cares about that shit? i want to cast that shadow off my back. jesus mary and judas i still feel like im struggling to grow up and become a ‘real’ adult sometimes. when im thirty-five and fully transistioned this will all be a distant memory.
I mean, I really don’t. I complain, but it’s just to pass the time a lot. I imagine though the lacking of a guaranteed way to actually be who you are inside does kinda force you to think about it. Especially trans women who have a harder time passing and have far less of that guarantee. That, and the whole being a tranny thing is usually pretty damaging. Nobody really lets go of trauma easy.
well yeah, i agree with all thisnyoure saying. i dont think itll ever be easy, especially not for trans women, especially not for trans women who are disabled, unwell, of color, etc. but i just, rarely i see trans people much older than myself and damn if they dont seem much happier and more content. its reassuring but also im envious. i want that for all of us in here on this website.