I love when I post my most significant achievement for the approval of people who I value higher than myself only for it to be ignored, this is literally one of my biggest insecurities, like my parents don’t care about me or any of my achievements, and I could never get attention from them… my friends don’t care… sure I’m proud… but if nobody cares am I even allowed to be proud… literally doesn’t matter, I’ll die in an unmarked grave, and be forgotten as soon as the last shovel of dirt is placed over me…

If I even get a grave, God I hope I don’t, it’ll deadnamed me anyhow, just cremate me and scatter me in some park… I would appreciate that rather than be deadnamed on my tomb…

I’m sorry y’all… I’m genuinely sorry y’all… for… I wish I could tell you, but it’s not like it matters, my opinions don’t matter, I don’t matter… and that’s ok… this is all ok

:3

One day I won’t even be here, and that’d be a day like any other… and that’s ok