And i hated it, it felt icky and disgusting and toxic… before I knew I was a troon, I wasn’t even that disgusting.
Genuinely feeling like dysphoriagirl rn.
Please someone tell me I’m faketrans and I,m just a man. Do I really want to troon out even? It’s like I’m reminding myself that I’m not a woman and will never be.


Yeah t does kinda do that
Am I not faketrans? I still feel like a man
This literally doesn’t mean anything, of course your brain is gonna have feelings adjacent to what a moid would feel if it’s currently getting raped by testosterone. Trust me when I say it gets better when you get on e. After a while on hrt I recognised that such feelings aren’t mine but what testosterone forced into my brain (and of course just making them hardly even exist anymore)
That makes me feel a lot better actually… I thought I was just a rapemoid but when I look at what I thought yesterday it does feel like an urge more than anything…