I’m a transsex woman and can accept this. i need to have a female body to continue living in this life but i fucking hate female gender roles so much. passing is great, i am glad to be seen as a woman but the drawbacks to this are that im seen as incapable of doing anything myself, i have to act/dress fem enough to be respected as a woman, I can’t be interested in certain things or else im not a woman.

it seems like everything i do is judged so harshly. i was re-watching game of thrones lately and i found myself relating to arya and brienne of tarth more than any other characters. everything about life as a woman just feels so fucking limiting. i want to be strong and capable. i want to be athletic, i want to dress more masculine and not get sideways looks for it. it makes me so insecure to try and dress more masculine because my friends will make comments like “oh ur detransing” NO I JUST WANT TO DRESS THIS WAY.

idk this is kind of a half assed rant and i don’t think i got my ideas across very well but ive just felt so trapped lately and its making me upset. gender really is a fucking performance at the end of the day and it makes me so upset. i guess the fix is probably just to stop giving a fuck what people think of me but it’s hard to do that.

i also don’t want to have my worth tied to being a good caretaker for an adult baby man that needs me to clean up for him or my skills in raising children. like is that all i am??? really?? fuck this

      • RabbitHoleGirly
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        5 days ago

        She is!!! The Mormonts as a whole are like such models of what it could mean to be female, and in part it kinda is supposed to because the Southern Kingdoms represent heteronormative feudalised society…

        I took an entire college level course on book 1 of a Song of Ice and Fire…

        • estrogenictopchadOP
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          5 days ago

          that fucking awesome whattt i would love to take a class like that 😭😭

          it really does seem like the north is a bit more accepting of women that operate outside the norms of society

          • RabbitHoleGirly
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            5 days ago

            It was like really cool and made me feel like such a GoT nerd but I wish I could write the essays in that class on the war of five kings or house arryn

            But we had a strict only book 1 no spoilers policy

    • estrogenictopchadOP
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      5 days ago

      i’m glad someone else feels the same way, i feel like even in trans spaces people can be so misogynistic.

  • nonarina
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    5 days ago

    My dad is the adult man baby who can’t clean up after himself and gets pissy if you do one thing he doesn’t like or in a way he doesn’t like. Makes me so hesitant about getting involved with a man bc im so afraid of him being the same type lol