the honlarper start’s off genuinely dooming and may even still genuinely doom, but once the honlarper posts a selfie and gets praised and gains a reputation as a honlarper, the honlarper is created. the honlarper must constantly try and seek that initial attention to suppress the crippling low self-esteem. sometimes this attention still isn’t enough. the very act of calling the honlarper a honlarper, feeds this; it molds the honlarper, the honlarper now tries to fit the new role that has been assigned. the honlarper is conflicted, on one hand the larper’s dooming is no long taken seriously, on the other the larper is provided feedback it’s not as bad as the larper initially thought.

now the honlarper at times will post genuine, real felt despair in doom posts, in other times the larper is not feeling bad at all and is doing it purely for that next hit of attention to mask the crippling low self-esteem. the honlarper has been created.

yes, this is insane nonsense, probably best to ignore me.