i started hrt in january 2025 at 22. far, far, far, far, far, far, far too late. too late for it to be of any use. i should have started hrt as a teen, i should have come out about having dysphoria as a teen, but i was scared and i didn’t. instead i accepted being a boy and played video games, now i’m ruined. i never bothered to draw, to have actual hobbies, to learn or do anything new or interesting or cool. now i’m stuck with nothing, everything around me is a pile of nothing. i wonder how many awesome people i could have met if i made the choice earlier. so many things i didn’t try, and whats the point of doing any of it now? and i’m so fucking annoyed that all people can is “its not too late” like shut the fuck UP because IT ABSOLUTELY FUCKING IS. 10 YEARS OF BEING A BOY AND WHAT??? I CAN STILL TRY??? FUCK OFF.
i don’t want to die, but theres no way i can live with this fucking pile of failures ive wrought on myself. im done.
Okay first grow up, second its not too late, stop regretting your past, and actively look towards the future, you can’t go back you can only go forward. You have decades of life ahead of you, sitting here on this doom site sobbing about how impossible it is for you to change is fucking stupid. Most people don’t know what they want to do until 30 on average. You can always pick up a new skill or learn to draw, for fucks sake most college students are just finishing their fourth year and starting to actually live a life at 22.