it’s driving me nuts

like yeah we’re all mentally ill and delusional trannies who deny nature or whatever, but like

you all do so much cool shit despite all you’ve gone through and suffered, and you keep on going

you all are put in these scenarios where the world is actively against you, yet you persevere and fight out

you all do so much good for others (today u saw someone here say they DIYpilled their brother when he was 11 against their parents’ wishes, which, if necessary, i WISH i could do for my 16 year old sibling who has like a 45% chance of being an ftm repper), and yet you all still act humble on how good of a person you are

how? like how? i wish i could.

and i’m not saying this as a “we can do it!” post or whatever, it actually infuriates me

this is supposed to be loser land and yet i don’t see any losers here but myself. should i leave? what the fuck?

  • theirsair
    2·
    1 month ago

    most of us arent anything special trust, we just rot inside our rooms all day long ever since we were born and we only “talk” like we are cool at least thats what i do.

    im alive because i dont want to make my parents and friends sad

    realistically, i dont think i ever have a chance of going stealth because im too fucked up in the head and you have to be a sneed to integrate successfully as a cis woman which i find impossible to do, so im just living here i guess, a wolf amongst sheep with 0 trannies around

    lastly, im not even counting for love because i dont think its actually a thing, no one ever actually had a crush on me or hinted at it and with me being some fat troon the chances decrease even more so yeah lol my goal is just getting through this so called “life” of mine to satisfy my parents

    • malebrainedfinalbossOP
      2·
      1 month ago

      the way the world perceives you should be independent of your self-worth, but unfortunately this condition prevents that for being the case for us :(

      and, when you can’t live for yourself, there is nothing morally wrong with living for the sake of others, it’s caring in its own way (even though it actively feels painful, i’m saying that bc i do the same)

      • theirsair
        2·
        1 month ago

        having a biological body is such a downgrade because of this shit like i wish i was some instance in a computer network that could travel around and stuff and like have a digital body that can look like anything you want

        yeah its not morally wrong but i usually hide the fact because my parents care a lot about me despite having their own issues and if they knew they’d get a heart attack

        also normally im not such a doomer about my life because sometimes it can be enjoyable its just being forced to boymode for years does this shit to my psyche and fucks me up you know, i hope its fixable

        • malebrainedfinalbossOP
          2·
          1 month ago

          for the first paragraph, YES PLEASE

          for the second paragraph, you are the first person i’ve seen in this community who’s situation with their parents is nearly the same as mine wow

          for the third paragraph, i get what you’re saying too, im prolly gonna be manmoding for years to come as well so i hope ill be able to manage

          • theirsair
            2·
            1 month ago

            yeah well, good luck. it gets harder and harder the more you do it