I’ve been on Een injections since 12 days ago. It is not that I’m displeasured with the changes or anything. I’m actually quite happy with them, even if they’re miniscule. Like my skin cleared up a bit from acne and feels smoother. My nipples started growing as well. Libido decreased a bit. I even remember slightly crying from happiness after waking up one day and being happy of being on e. But recently I’ve been feeling fearful, like really scared. My nipples also have been hurting a lot, making me kind of uncomfortable. However I think I’m just mostly scared of the future. And scared of being faketrans and regretting it. I’ll have to boymode for over a year, and no one must realize, NO ONE. I’m scared that if my boobs grow, people will notice, and that I won’t be able to hide them somehow. Like especially during mandatory P.E at highschool. I still have no idea how I’ll change my clothes. I’m also scared of a potential beach vacation with my parents, and being forced to get some sun shirtless. What if I get gyno by that time and they notice? What am I going to do? I’m so scared that I’ve even been considering repping, or hondosing myself. But I know that it takes one bad dysphoria episode and I’ll inject that shit like a junkie.

Also a question, how does reverse dysphoria actually feel like, just in case.

If my boobs grow, would wearing a trans tape to hide them during P.E lessons be non damaging, or is a sports bra good enough? Maybe I could fake that I’ve cut myself on my chest and have to bandage or smth? Or maybe I could induce some kind of a temporary medical condition so that a doctor can excuse me? Or just change in the bathroom and be seen as a weirdo?