I always knew I was uglier and more disgusting and just worth less… not even other arabs with their retarded hypermasculine thug hood bullshit gangster fuckery wanted me… ugh I always despised this hood culture and the disgusting way one would not speak properly, think properly… not integrate into society, yeah yeah white devil all right, I get it… but for fucks sake… talk properly… open your fucking mouth and articulate the words you are saying. I always hated this shit. This whole hood bullshit. Poor, uneducated and not even interessted in a cultured dignified self presentation.

I never fitted in with that, especially with the arab-masculinity culture bullshit, and as a sensitive little sissies mama’s boy… I was never gonna fit in with, not even in elementry school with these fuckes, with these thugg macho retarded inarticulate pieces of shit.

And at the majority white middle and highschool I was. I made fucking sure to speak as properly as possible, to articulate my words as preciclesy as possible but my fucking tongue still made me sound like a gorrila to these whiteskins, my disgusting skin was not wanted, dick jokes about how a brownie like me must have a huge dick, trying to major my fucking shoe sizes. People cheering me on when I fullfilled some lame ass gangster fucking sterotype for a while. I always knew that I never wanted to be seen like those idiot brown fcks from elementary school that constantly got into fights. But I was never fucking good enough, hm. And guess what. Ofc my brown skin was also not desirable.

My ugly ass genetics and fucked up ethnicity and culture and family and all that shit.

So you ask me… yeah, yeah I would have much rather not be this… this thing