my grades are fucked and i have no options rn
- full medical withdrawal: i would have to move out of campus housing and i really cannot do that for several reasons
- withdraw from all but 1 class: there is no class that im doing well enough in to do this and still get a c or above (i must get a 2.0 or above every semester or ill be kicked out of college cause of my fucked up past (academic suspension))
- kill myself
3 looks more and more appealing every single day
im meeting with the dean of students thursday but theres really only so much he can do. its not even like i can tell him about my weed addiction cause its not allowed here. im planning on substituting my weed addiction with alcohol when i talk with him. except i dont actually know shit about regular alcohol use much less addiction. like if i talk about like the stuff im going through with weed addiction but pretend its alcohol addiction it wont translate 1:1 and he’d prob just get confused
i’m not sure what’s it’s like where you are but i know at least the university i went to offered amnesty/help for things like drug addiction even if it’s illegal, maybe double check to see if they have policies like that.
the thing is it’s not illegal it’s just against the rules which i feel like makes it risky