wish i didn’t have to wait so long to find out… trying to be hopeful is tiring

  • Anna Bolshevik
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    1 month ago

    i wish i could believe in a god, or an afterlife. i’ve just pushed through everything with no hope of it getting better, and i don’t know if i can keep doing it. but if there’s nothing after this, then it just doesn’t matter if i push thought the pain or not. it won’t be rewarded. i won’t get congratulated for knowing my place and not hurting people. if there’s no god i guess i truly am all alone in the whole universe, no one ever saw my pain, heard my cries. but there isn’t a god or afterlife, so… yeah.

    • skyOP
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      1 month ago

      yeah, probably not. But the hope there is lets me want to not give up. I hope there’s something better after this, and i really hope it’s all worth it in the end. If i’m wrong, well at least i died trying to live anyway