I feel like I’m constantly communicating from behind some kind of wall between my actual feels, thoughts, and desires, and “the real world”. It feels very poignant atm bc im high; more noticable, clear. I’m always redirecting conversations and interactions around me or away from me, rarely allowing them to make meaningful actual contact. I’m probably not in touch with my self atm either, though. I don’t know how to turn these salient moments into meaningful change, which is frustrating. My thoughts and external reality diverge sharply most of the time. I need to change more still if im going to live. Hmm

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