Why is it every time I become friends with one of you, you are so pretty and feminine? (Yeah I only make friends with women idk why)

  • Tamara
    4·
    1 month ago

    True. As an ex-honlarper I managed to grow some self-awareness and I still am ashamed of my behaviour. Now that I know I’m just regular bdd twinkhon looking like semi-passoid on her better day, I really see how sad it is to watch. But still, it sucks anyway - being occasionaly pretty doesn’t mean I can reliably pass or even get treated like a human being.

  • t. choder
    41·
    1 month ago

    I kinda agree, yeah, and it makes sense as we skew younger. The demographic seems to be midshit twinkhons who’d need to effortmaxx and clothesfraud daily to functionally live their lives as tho they were passoids, and probably could if they would, but will settle at nothing short of being able to nakedpass and baldpass in absolutely all concievable circumstances, so they don’t do the effort cuz it feels like putting makeup on a horse if they couldn’t otherwise effortlessly pass. For the record I’m also perfectly describing myself. Objectively speaking I’d even go as far to say I benefit from a notable degree of pretty privilege, just in a “this prettyboy probably wants to get she/her’d based off the heat-from-fire ahh voice he’s putting out” kinda way. If I low-effort posted in femboy subreddits gooners would 100% lose their minds salivating, and I’m capable of genuine female passing with just a bit of effort/frauding, but I still wanna rope as that’s just no way to live for me imo. I feel like a gorillahon from the vantage-point of who I want to be, but I wouldn’t survive 5 minutes as an actual one, and I’d be surprised if I survived this year as I am.

    • Wandering
      3·
      1 month ago

      I don’t get the obsession with being unable ro bald/masc pass. so what do you do if you’re in this position? do you simply give up and complain on niche internet forums forever instead of putting in the effort that 99% of cis women don’t need to put in?

      it’s not like surgeries could help you, that’s based primarily on skull shape and size which you can do nothing about.

      • t. choder
        21·
        1 month ago

        My transition ideal is basically theyfab-adjacent kinda shit, like I genuinely dislike makeup for example and mostly just want to be a female twink that has such a short and gigafoided skeleton with a tiny neotonous skull that I could get top surgery and shave my head and everyone would still just instinctively she/her me in 100% of circumstances no matter what I wear. Since I didn’t troon at 9 this is now impossible, and if I ever stopped being convinced that being a troon might be some kind of cosmic punishment for suicide in a past life I might just reincarnationmaxx then and there

        • AriaLove8StringsOP
          2·
          1 month ago

          Same. I really wish I could like Grace from RE9 or like some of those punk girls with short hair.

    • AriaLove8StringsOP
      2·
      1 month ago

      You’re perfectly describing me too, yes. I’d probably pass if I put on a wig and dressed up, but I just hate that at my core I look like a femboy

      • t. choder
        2·
        1 month ago

        Thanks. I did like writing at one point before I crashed out and John19’d and dropped out of school and became a do-nothing NEET lol

    • AriaLove8StringsOP
      2·
      1 month ago

      Yeah it does, and we need a space to vent and for people to take our dysphoria seriously, not like MtF or god forbid count with chicken lady. You’re being too harsh on yourselves though (and me too I know)

    • AriaLove8StringsOP
      11·
      1 month ago

      Arguably. Maybe. This made-up terminology is always debated tbh lol

  • racemk
    1·
    1 month ago

    This will sound trite but I am actually a gorillahon and can provide proof as such in dms because everyone else here seems to be larping

    • AriaLove8StringsOP
      1·
      1 month ago

      I remember the girl on 4tran4 sub, Evelyn I think? She is like 6’7 but she is the most positive person there, and pretty cute too

  • RegardedPaige
    1·
    1 month ago

    I know this is what bddpassoids and honlarpers wud say, but I can promise u am 100% full grade hon.

    If u want proof I will provide it privately.

  • Narcissus
    1·
    1 month ago

    i am the only true hon as a lateshit forcerepper. everyone else is a larper.