My transition ideal is basically theyfab-adjacent kinda shit, like I genuinely dislike makeup for example and mostly just want to be a female twink that has such a short and gigafoided skeleton with a tiny neotonous skull that I could get top surgery and shave my head and everyone would still just instinctively she/her me in 100% of circumstances no matter what I wear. Since I didn’t troon at 9 this is now impossible, and if I ever stopped being convinced that being a troon might be some kind of cosmic punishment for suicide in a past life I might just reincarnationmaxx then and there