I have a lot of things to say but they are stuck in my mind like in the bog, nothing can be put into comprehensive sentence, I’m only capable of vaguely portraying how I feel. I’d rather just be understood by simply standing next to someone, or telepathically transfer my feelings to someone else right now.

I get the feeling that my body limits my emotions, I want to go beyond and feel more. My thoughts are a mush, they have no meaning, only feelings are comprehensible - I feel struggle inside my head like if a part of me just went against me, I feel completely estranged from the world.

I somehow spent half an hour on writing this, that’s enough…

  • Cambi
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    18 days ago

    Same zone. I hate speaking with words, it takes me a long time to translate what I feel in comprehensible to other people sentences. And with a layer of dissociation and headache on top of it, it is downright annoying.

  • TamaraOP
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    18 days ago

    Five more days until psychiatrist appointment, if I don’t get the pills that make it go way I might end it.