everyone else feels like a reminder what i could’ve done instead of repped. i see a tween and get reminded “wow, i must’ve had so much free will back then, and instead i spent it on video games”. i open pinterest and so much is either created by 14-20 yr olds or something like that. everyone at my college is generally younger than me by a few years. i hate being 23. i hate that i wasted my teens on nothing at all. i don’t wanna live anymore. i don’t want to grow old. i’m so fucking scared.
yeah… i’m 26 and i can’t rly totally believe it… completely wasted my teens, and ig i did some stuff in my early 20s but i didn’t start hrt until being 23 so… it hurts so much i want to be 18 at college again, already transitioned since early puberty and start it all over again… why i can’t do it…
