Firstly, I don’t feel any recognisable dysphoria, and would probably be content to continue life as a cis man ( not trutrans ) Secondly, I don’t get aroused in any way thinking about myself as a woman, nor do I watch trans porn ( not agp ) Thirdly, I don’t tell anyone I know about being trans ( not attentionseeking ) But despite all of this i still have the urge to start estrogen every day My only working theory is shame over being a short neurodivergent man and seeking an easier path in life as my only option because im not suicidal