since i try to not crash out i tried to think my way out of situation im in.

i did some outline tweakings, and basically there are 2 main steps i must accomplish to achieve feminine build.

1. weight-piomaxx for hip area. it must help if i will reach estimated measurements, but body will still look uncanny, so second step.

2. posturemaxx. its crazy, but just 2-3 cm from shoulder width basically gives proper balance even for my current hips. since i can’t afford clavicle reduction in the next good chunk of my live, really the only way is to change posture of my shoulders to more backed off version. technically it doesnt even look weird, it just super uncomfortable because i dont used to this posture. I seen a video on which there were some exersizes for helping to develop better posture, which basically reduces visual bideltoid.

i wish i didnt had to resort to what actual luckshits never would beeded to resort to. no, seriously, how the fuck 41 cm bideltoid is the barrier between having normal shoulders and wide shoulders??? the fuck it works this way. sobbing.

kinda hate this all but i guess i cant really just continue self-loathing just because got unlucky with a single feature. but tbh after this realization if i will be able to get a surgery, first one will be clavicle reduction one. kinda unique to not start with ffs or srs haha… ha…

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