Never held hands never hugged never kissed nobody who I like likes me back and at this point I’m too anxious to do anything casually because I feel like after all this time surely I should wait for something serious
If you have the chance for something casual you should take it, inexperience won’t be an asset
I’m really scared of intimacy though… there was this girl last year who kept coming to my dorm room because she wanted to cuddle with me and I got so nervous and anxious that I just started giving her the cold shoulder
Thats why you gotta learn how to handle it all with people who dont matter so much
But everyone matters
:( yeah it can be hard to be uninvested and not putting all of yourself into it. The whole thing with this where you start thinking of yourself with this lonely narrative can cause some difficulties too though, so it can be worth considering if there’s uncommitted options where you can be invested enough.
But yeah being autistic/weird can lead to some weird journeys with people. My relationship with my wife began as an online long distance thing that took 7 years to ever close the gap due to various setbacks. But I got there. Hopefully your journey is less of an ordeal but you can get there!!
