I need to start voice training but I’m almost never alone in my room to do this. like, today some guy held a door for me cuz I was carrying two heavy bags and I mumbled a thank you as quietly as possible and then he fucking sped up to hold another door for me??? I’m so stupid stupid stupid why am I like this why can’t I bring myself to do literally anything at all. I keep hoping that somebody would read my silhouette as feminine and then they do or say something that prompts me to respond and that hope gets fucking shattered. every single time, always, I’m more privileged then others and fail to do one of the more effort based parts. lucky enough to roll decent stats and it’s the voice where I get stuck at. well, it would be laughable to expect me to accomplish something. I’m not surprised