I hate that my body is now probably permanently deformed without surgery from getting so fat. Right now I am in a stage where the fat in my stomach above my belly button is the most prominent and I have big divets in my stomach on either side of my body and the donut of fat around my waist. At least all of my clothes are oversized from losing 80 lbs so I don’t have to constantly confront what I look like right now. Another 70 lbs to go to be in the middle of a healthy BMI like I have wanted to be my entire stupid childhood obesity ridden life.