no matter what i do, i cannot abandon religion.

i fell out of faith when i was a gayboy but like a year into my social transition, i became religious again (4ish years ago). its not stopping me from transition but its like i cant be happy because i can never be true to either side. srs would be considered a grave mortal sin but i need it. bad. and im already on a wait list for it but i worry.

i cant even go to church without feeling like a guilty pervert. i cant take the host. i dont have the balls to talk to a priest about being a transsexual and i hate when people call me a moron for being religious. it is both the greatest sense of existential catharsis/comfort and dread in my life.

in another world, i’m a devout catholic sahm who runs some youth program at a church. in this world, i’m a tranny working towards a career i love but i fear for whats to come when i die.

    • roryOP
      1·
      29 days ago

      no. i cant even switch to nicer forms of Christianity. it must be Catholicism or nothing.

  • Prairillot
    22·
    29 days ago

    As a mormon tranny even if both our churches don’t agree I truly believe we are welcome in heaven and I’m sure if you pray God will answer you that this is what you’re supposed to do, don’t feel guilty about srs or doing what you need to over come trials given to women like us.