i’m simultaneously scared of cis women and scared of getting older not having cis women friends

real, i legit have a debilitating inferiority complex about it and am constantly afraid of being too moidbrained

i can ignore what men think cuz theyre dumb but the thought of coming across as a gross dude to women actually makes me feel sick to the point that i just isolate myself instead

(i know fem/malebrained is a psyop but still)

real i’m desperate for approval from cis women so im terrified of finding out that they see me as a man or a freak or smth

Whenever i make eye contact with my female colleagues i dart my eyes away as quickly as possible. I try to make little bits of small talk and regret it immediately. When I bumped into one of them i apologize immediately. I try to balance how often i talk to them compared to men so that its not uneven.

I was also always scared of women